I met my husband when I was 17. We got married when I turn 21. We have been married for close to 25 years. I knew he had a drinking problem when I married him. his dad was an alcoholic that stopped drinking about at age 30. His drinking was"by bed when we first got married and I figured he'd stop drinking as he matured. we did have two children. The drinking has been an on going issue our whole marriage. I would wait up at nights wondering if he would come home or if he would be dead. At that point I had two children to worry about I need to be the responsible parent. at that point I had two children to worry about I need to be the responsible parent. Every time he would go out i"d wait for him and I would just tell myself not to care because I will be hurt in the end. He would lie about his drinking he would hide alcohol around the house. He was a functioning alcoholic because he was able to hold a good job. I was afraid to leave them alone with the kids or let him drive them. One day he did come home with the kids in grade school and he had been drinking any drop them in the car. I asked him to leave the house and he moved out for six months. he did come back and stop drinking for about nine months but then continue his old habits. he did come back and stop drinking for about nine months but then continue his old habits. he no longer goes out and drinks he just sits in the basement and drinks and gets drunk at home. We started sleeping in separate rooms about seven years ago . we do not have a social life together and we no longer sleep together sex once every few months. he will get drunk and yell at me because I do t want to show him affection or have sex. I have sex just to stop the verbal abuse. He had chased me out the house Because he will not stop fighting and I just can't handle it any longer. My youngest just turned 18 and will be off to college soon. I reconnected with some old friends and started going out having fun and being myself again . I filed for divorce . it's a very scary decision because he is the only man I've ever been. I have a good job and I can support myself but I'm so scared of the unknown I Question my decision..